Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I like Porn
Simple straight forward. I own porn. I have a decent amount of it. I don't hide that fact. If you can't get over it or 'say me or the porn', well you better be damn worth it. And so far I have met NO ONE that is worth it. I would be willing to maybe stop the consumtion of porn for some one. But I am not going to get rid of it. Besides the right one for me would have no problem with me having porn and would possibly enjoy it. OK so there is a limit to my porn. No midgets (even though I talk about it), no animals, no incredibly weird shit, no old people, no minors, and none of that shit/piss stuff. Porn never asks where you were, what you doing, it never has a head ache, wants to talk about the relationship, is there if you want it, and if you get tired of it you can get a new one no questions asked.
Simple straight forward. I own porn. I have a decent amount of it. I don't hide that fact. If you can't get over it or 'say me or the porn', well you better be damn worth it. And so far I have met NO ONE that is worth it. I would be willing to maybe stop the consumtion of porn for some one. But I am not going to get rid of it. Besides the right one for me would have no problem with me having porn and would possibly enjoy it. OK so there is a limit to my porn. No midgets (even though I talk about it), no animals, no incredibly weird shit, no old people, no minors, and none of that shit/piss stuff. Porn never asks where you were, what you doing, it never has a head ache, wants to talk about the relationship, is there if you want it, and if you get tired of it you can get a new one no questions asked.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Its been a year
So one year ago today June 21, my older brother put a bullet in his brain pan. He did it because of a girl, not a woman but a girl. I can't say I am happy with that decision but I do understand how a woman can push you to things like that. I can also say that not a day goes by that something doesn't just pop into my head and remind me of him. Its smells, and what not. There is this guy who acts just like him and has a starnge resemblance of him too. This guy works out at LandsEnd and just strangly makes me think of him. I did my crying, I did my feeling bad. I hopefully an over it. Not over losing a brother no... but losing him like that. He was a selfish prick. HE wasn't all that great of a brother either. He treated both me and my younger brother like shit. He was the most important. We weren't. I was never his friend, never would have been either. I didn't lose anything when he died, not a son, not a friend or uncle, not a source of income. Just a brother. He is my brother, and I miss him. If I saw him or had one day to talk to him I would beat the shit out of him. Why are you so fucking stupid you fucking idiot. AHHHH. Dumb bastard.
So one year ago today June 21, my older brother put a bullet in his brain pan. He did it because of a girl, not a woman but a girl. I can't say I am happy with that decision but I do understand how a woman can push you to things like that. I can also say that not a day goes by that something doesn't just pop into my head and remind me of him. Its smells, and what not. There is this guy who acts just like him and has a starnge resemblance of him too. This guy works out at LandsEnd and just strangly makes me think of him. I did my crying, I did my feeling bad. I hopefully an over it. Not over losing a brother no... but losing him like that. He was a selfish prick. HE wasn't all that great of a brother either. He treated both me and my younger brother like shit. He was the most important. We weren't. I was never his friend, never would have been either. I didn't lose anything when he died, not a son, not a friend or uncle, not a source of income. Just a brother. He is my brother, and I miss him. If I saw him or had one day to talk to him I would beat the shit out of him. Why are you so fucking stupid you fucking idiot. AHHHH. Dumb bastard.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Discussion Points
Why is it that we use realtionships to define ourselves? Why do other people ask, "So when are you gonna meet some one nice and settle down?" Why is it that we need to feel that connection with someone? Why is it sometimes so hard to find that right person? Why do some people continue to see people even when they are unhappy in that relationship? Why can't some people just get the idea that some one else is wrong for them?
If I had that job that kept be busy all the time I'd be fine with never meeting the right one,I'd just throw myself into the job. But right now I have way to much time on my hands.
Bugger relationships and how they define us.
Why is it that we use realtionships to define ourselves? Why do other people ask, "So when are you gonna meet some one nice and settle down?" Why is it that we need to feel that connection with someone? Why is it sometimes so hard to find that right person? Why do some people continue to see people even when they are unhappy in that relationship? Why can't some people just get the idea that some one else is wrong for them?
If I had that job that kept be busy all the time I'd be fine with never meeting the right one,I'd just throw myself into the job. But right now I have way to much time on my hands.
Bugger relationships and how they define us.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Rule 8 Clarifaction:
Friends should always forgive, unless the drunken crime was hienious. Such as setting some one on fire, sleeping with a friends girl, or something along those lines. Drunken boy/girlfriends who do dumb things don't always get the pass
New Rule #9:
Do not make your girlfriend order your food for you because you are on the phone with some body talking about how you just got BLITZED last night and how these girls were all over you. Thats like 1st vote douchebag Hall of Fame material.
New Rule #10:
Do not send your kid into a place to get you something to eat while you sit in the car and listen to the radio. Amendment: Don't send your kids if under 10 years of age into a place by themselves to get you and themselves food. Shut the car off and go in with them. Especially if the food is for you. Man up do it yourself.
Fuck am I mad at the world right now.
There is some one who the more I get to know her the more I like her, but she is almost too young and she smokes. While those are too things that get some disqualified, there are just these glimpses of what she can really be like and I like those. She can be so sweet at times and to me we flirt well together. I need sleep later bitches.
Friends should always forgive, unless the drunken crime was hienious. Such as setting some one on fire, sleeping with a friends girl, or something along those lines. Drunken boy/girlfriends who do dumb things don't always get the pass
New Rule #9:
Do not make your girlfriend order your food for you because you are on the phone with some body talking about how you just got BLITZED last night and how these girls were all over you. Thats like 1st vote douchebag Hall of Fame material.
New Rule #10:
Do not send your kid into a place to get you something to eat while you sit in the car and listen to the radio. Amendment: Don't send your kids if under 10 years of age into a place by themselves to get you and themselves food. Shut the car off and go in with them. Especially if the food is for you. Man up do it yourself.
Fuck am I mad at the world right now.
There is some one who the more I get to know her the more I like her, but she is almost too young and she smokes. While those are too things that get some disqualified, there are just these glimpses of what she can really be like and I like those. She can be so sweet at times and to me we flirt well together. I need sleep later bitches.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
E-Harm Officially Sucks
So the one girl I actually get a date with won't return my phone calls. It doesn't piss me off it just depresses the hell out of me. So now I can't get a date even with people who are supposed to match me in personality. What does that say about me? I knew that my looks were an issue, now my personality is too? Well fuck that noize. I am not changing to please any one. Fuck you, fuck the horse you're gonna fuck, and fuck you for making me pay to get rejected. Sumbitches. Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck. I'm going to bed. Eat it.
Hammer
New Rule #8:
Just because you're drunk doesn't mean you can be an ass, and just because you're drunk doesn't mean you can be forgiven the next day.
So the one girl I actually get a date with won't return my phone calls. It doesn't piss me off it just depresses the hell out of me. So now I can't get a date even with people who are supposed to match me in personality. What does that say about me? I knew that my looks were an issue, now my personality is too? Well fuck that noize. I am not changing to please any one. Fuck you, fuck the horse you're gonna fuck, and fuck you for making me pay to get rejected. Sumbitches. Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck. I'm going to bed. Eat it.
Hammer
New Rule #8:
Just because you're drunk doesn't mean you can be an ass, and just because you're drunk doesn't mean you can be forgiven the next day.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
FUCK!!!
So I have some friends/co-workers who have been asking me how e-harmony has been going. Here is the quick answer: shit. Here is the long answer, intial responce is always to looks, honestly if you don't find some one attractive it just won't work, thats why I closed out some and thats why I was closed out by some. They should have that as a reason for closing some one out, I don't find you attractive. None of this I beleive the physical distance bullshit. Especially when you live in Madison or Dubuque. What the fuck lady do you want me to live right down the fucking hallway from you? Fuck you. In my three months on e-harmony, I talked with one person in person or on the phone, was closed out by 2-3 women who matched and the of the remaining 1 4-5 of those were non paying so they couldn't respond anyway. Yeah it pissed me off, these fucking matching sites to me are bullshit. I have to pay to get rejected fucking christ man.
So all day I have been going back and forth from pissed to depresed to happy. I went to madison today, bought an adult DVD, comic books, had dinner at Uno's somewhat flirted with the waitress golly she was cute, saw Knocked Up, and had a fairly good day.
The reason behind me feeling depressed is that the one girl I was actually coresponding with on there hasn't called me back. We had a day date had lunch and icecream and talked she said to call her, I did, three times over the week. She doesn't like being smothered so thats all I got. She said she would call or I could call her. I though the date went well, apparently I was on a different date.
Women just plain confuse me, go to slow with one and its not slow enough with the next, they want good guys, but only if they have rock hard abs and great bone scruture. Great personalitiers only happen when your good looking. A sence of humor keeps you in the room but he had to be good looking to get in in the 1st place. You know the line I'd use here so I won't use it. Instead, fuck it. I am tired of persuing women, fuck it. Yeah I want kids, yeah I want a relationship, but if this is the shit I have to deal with to get that fuck it. It ain't worth the heart ache or brain drain.
Later Bitches
So I have some friends/co-workers who have been asking me how e-harmony has been going. Here is the quick answer: shit. Here is the long answer, intial responce is always to looks, honestly if you don't find some one attractive it just won't work, thats why I closed out some and thats why I was closed out by some. They should have that as a reason for closing some one out, I don't find you attractive. None of this I beleive the physical distance bullshit. Especially when you live in Madison or Dubuque. What the fuck lady do you want me to live right down the fucking hallway from you? Fuck you. In my three months on e-harmony, I talked with one person in person or on the phone, was closed out by 2-3 women who matched and the of the remaining 1 4-5 of those were non paying so they couldn't respond anyway. Yeah it pissed me off, these fucking matching sites to me are bullshit. I have to pay to get rejected fucking christ man.
So all day I have been going back and forth from pissed to depresed to happy. I went to madison today, bought an adult DVD, comic books, had dinner at Uno's somewhat flirted with the waitress golly she was cute, saw Knocked Up, and had a fairly good day.
The reason behind me feeling depressed is that the one girl I was actually coresponding with on there hasn't called me back. We had a day date had lunch and icecream and talked she said to call her, I did, three times over the week. She doesn't like being smothered so thats all I got. She said she would call or I could call her. I though the date went well, apparently I was on a different date.
Women just plain confuse me, go to slow with one and its not slow enough with the next, they want good guys, but only if they have rock hard abs and great bone scruture. Great personalitiers only happen when your good looking. A sence of humor keeps you in the room but he had to be good looking to get in in the 1st place. You know the line I'd use here so I won't use it. Instead, fuck it. I am tired of persuing women, fuck it. Yeah I want kids, yeah I want a relationship, but if this is the shit I have to deal with to get that fuck it. It ain't worth the heart ache or brain drain.
Later Bitches
