Friday, July 28, 2006
Lance Bass is Gay.
Duh!!!
Hey at least this way when some one says "Lance Bass is Gay" its no longer a derogitory term its a fact.
Ohh and now it gives new meaning to Boy bands suck. hehehe
Duh!!!
Hey at least this way when some one says "Lance Bass is Gay" its no longer a derogitory term its a fact.
Ohh and now it gives new meaning to Boy bands suck. hehehe
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
James Blunt Needs to Die
Horribly and hopefully painfully. Also that ass clown who wrote that Bad Day song should Die as well. I have to hear that shit way to much and neither song is all that good any more. Kelly Clarkson how ever gets to live cause I like her song that they over play. Plus she is hot. Also has any one else noticed this of maybe I am just going crazier, but the start of that Kelly Clarkson song Walk Away almost sounds like the begining of a Live song like Throwing Copper or something.
I eat fruit and continue to cut notches further in my belt to keep it tight.
Horribly and hopefully painfully. Also that ass clown who wrote that Bad Day song should Die as well. I have to hear that shit way to much and neither song is all that good any more. Kelly Clarkson how ever gets to live cause I like her song that they over play. Plus she is hot. Also has any one else noticed this of maybe I am just going crazier, but the start of that Kelly Clarkson song Walk Away almost sounds like the begining of a Live song like Throwing Copper or something.
I eat fruit and continue to cut notches further in my belt to keep it tight.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Fucking Freezing
How the hell can I be freezing its like 80 plus outside right now and its 10:30. So I am freezing because he keeps the fucking air between 72 and 68. But then during the winter keeps it in the high 70's low 80's. I ask WHAT THE FUCK HERE PEOPLE!!!!
OK so not much happens to be during the week any more. But the week ends and when I go out things seem to happen. This past week end on the way to Madison, Kyle attempted to start my car on fire. How he managed this I don't know. It happened right before we would have gotten to Mt. Horeb. We were behind a pair of motorcycles when I could smell something burning. At first I thought it was the motorcycles. Then I saw smoke coming from the back seat. And as they say where theres smoke their some Madison liberal trying to say it shouldn't be allowed in businesses. :) Anyway I started pulling over as soon as I could and Kyle threw water on it. Seems as though some of the ashes from Kyle's cigar flew into the back seat and started my bandanna on fire. Damn weird I tell ya.
Keep having the same dream just with two different women. On is a regular and I can't my mind off the other is a new one who I had a crush on in high school. She was a really good looking tall blond and I tried as hard as I could to make her hate me. Why? Cause for me its easier to make some one hate me then to make them like me.
Song of the Day: Hinder "Lips of an Angel"
Thought O' Day: The mind is a beehive of shit huh?
How the hell can I be freezing its like 80 plus outside right now and its 10:30. So I am freezing because he keeps the fucking air between 72 and 68. But then during the winter keeps it in the high 70's low 80's. I ask WHAT THE FUCK HERE PEOPLE!!!!
OK so not much happens to be during the week any more. But the week ends and when I go out things seem to happen. This past week end on the way to Madison, Kyle attempted to start my car on fire. How he managed this I don't know. It happened right before we would have gotten to Mt. Horeb. We were behind a pair of motorcycles when I could smell something burning. At first I thought it was the motorcycles. Then I saw smoke coming from the back seat. And as they say where theres smoke their some Madison liberal trying to say it shouldn't be allowed in businesses. :) Anyway I started pulling over as soon as I could and Kyle threw water on it. Seems as though some of the ashes from Kyle's cigar flew into the back seat and started my bandanna on fire. Damn weird I tell ya.
Keep having the same dream just with two different women. On is a regular and I can't my mind off the other is a new one who I had a crush on in high school. She was a really good looking tall blond and I tried as hard as I could to make her hate me. Why? Cause for me its easier to make some one hate me then to make them like me.
Song of the Day: Hinder "Lips of an Angel"
Thought O' Day: The mind is a beehive of shit huh?
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Sometimes
You just want to punch people in the fucking head.
On another note, i mowed the yard today outside temp 96 at the time according to a termometer. I had to raise the mower cause somebody decided it was better to scalp the yard than to trim the grass. Let this be a lesson to you people. Keep the grass nice and green. Never scalp it. That just invites weeds and bad things. Keep the mower set to a some what high blade cut. This will keep your yard nice and green. Also for you Rob Callahan if you read this, No, I did not move anything. Its going on two plus years of mowing around items in the yard. If you know me you'll understand why.
I saw Pirates of the Caribean Dead Man's Chest tonight. I thought it to be very good. Nice twists and cool effects.
I have a second interview with Pizza Hut on Monday night. This is for a managerial postion. I hope. I want this to go well. I hope it goes well because I need something in me life these days.
Ya know what I love about my friends they have never taken a digital camera out when we were drinking so that stupid pics of us could be taken. My friends drink we didn't do things we drank. I realized this while cruising My Space. I have no drunken photos. Thank God.
Speaking of drinking, when I had my gall bladder out they said that I shouldn't drink again for a while. This is good because in all honestly I don't want nor feel the need to drink any more. Actually I do some nights want a drink but then I remember how depressed it would make me. And all the drunken e-mails I would send. Yeah I have it under control and don't feel the want to drink. I'll still go out and hang with friends but thats where I draw the line. That and I don't want to know what I would do if I were drinking and started to think of my brother. I don't want to be a blabbering drunk that is becoming overly emotional. I hate people that do that and I don't want to be that person, again.
Went to The Dells on Wednesday with Page it was fun. We drove go carts alot. I spun out a few kids. Its not my fault they gave me the inside and I took it. They should have looked over their shoulders. Damn kids learn to drive and KNOW that I drive to win. We also went golfing at Deer Valley Golf cource in Barneveld. That was a nice cource. Especially hole 5 and 6.
I want a realtionship but I am unwilling to change to get that so I guess I'm fucked.
Ohh yeah and when the hell are people going to realize that the flag burning issue and gay rights are just smoke screens to get our sites away from gas prices, Iraq, and medicre at best White House leadership. OK so gays should be able to form some kind of civil union whether it be marriage or not. It just seems 'funny' that it only comes up when elections are nearing.
Song of the Day: Sevendust "Failure"
Thought O' Day: Choice your own and I'll answer it.
You just want to punch people in the fucking head.
On another note, i mowed the yard today outside temp 96 at the time according to a termometer. I had to raise the mower cause somebody decided it was better to scalp the yard than to trim the grass. Let this be a lesson to you people. Keep the grass nice and green. Never scalp it. That just invites weeds and bad things. Keep the mower set to a some what high blade cut. This will keep your yard nice and green. Also for you Rob Callahan if you read this, No, I did not move anything. Its going on two plus years of mowing around items in the yard. If you know me you'll understand why.
I saw Pirates of the Caribean Dead Man's Chest tonight. I thought it to be very good. Nice twists and cool effects.
I have a second interview with Pizza Hut on Monday night. This is for a managerial postion. I hope. I want this to go well. I hope it goes well because I need something in me life these days.
Ya know what I love about my friends they have never taken a digital camera out when we were drinking so that stupid pics of us could be taken. My friends drink we didn't do things we drank. I realized this while cruising My Space. I have no drunken photos. Thank God.
Speaking of drinking, when I had my gall bladder out they said that I shouldn't drink again for a while. This is good because in all honestly I don't want nor feel the need to drink any more. Actually I do some nights want a drink but then I remember how depressed it would make me. And all the drunken e-mails I would send. Yeah I have it under control and don't feel the want to drink. I'll still go out and hang with friends but thats where I draw the line. That and I don't want to know what I would do if I were drinking and started to think of my brother. I don't want to be a blabbering drunk that is becoming overly emotional. I hate people that do that and I don't want to be that person, again.
Went to The Dells on Wednesday with Page it was fun. We drove go carts alot. I spun out a few kids. Its not my fault they gave me the inside and I took it. They should have looked over their shoulders. Damn kids learn to drive and KNOW that I drive to win. We also went golfing at Deer Valley Golf cource in Barneveld. That was a nice cource. Especially hole 5 and 6.
I want a realtionship but I am unwilling to change to get that so I guess I'm fucked.
Ohh yeah and when the hell are people going to realize that the flag burning issue and gay rights are just smoke screens to get our sites away from gas prices, Iraq, and medicre at best White House leadership. OK so gays should be able to form some kind of civil union whether it be marriage or not. It just seems 'funny' that it only comes up when elections are nearing.
Song of the Day: Sevendust "Failure"
Thought O' Day: Choice your own and I'll answer it.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
bad before I even wake up
Had these messed up dreams again. They involved the 1st girl I eer liked and liked me back (see prior post) and one girl from college. Most of the dreams dealt with them and me in Platteville on the ripped up Pine Street. Its bad that you feel depressed before you even wake up in the morning.
Had these messed up dreams again. They involved the 1st girl I eer liked and liked me back (see prior post) and one girl from college. Most of the dreams dealt with them and me in Platteville on the ripped up Pine Street. Its bad that you feel depressed before you even wake up in the morning.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
not good
I just did a check of my astrology sign and found that only one sign an Aquarius is a good match to my Libra. Ohh all the other signs had something good about the match but they also had down sides. This sucks I will only find love with some one born between January 20th and Febuary 18? I can say this the 1st girl I ever really liked and she liked me back was born on Feb 18th. But she moved to Appleton when we were in Jr High. This sucks. My love life sucks and now this?
I just did a check of my astrology sign and found that only one sign an Aquarius is a good match to my Libra. Ohh all the other signs had something good about the match but they also had down sides. This sucks I will only find love with some one born between January 20th and Febuary 18? I can say this the 1st girl I ever really liked and she liked me back was born on Feb 18th. But she moved to Appleton when we were in Jr High. This sucks. My love life sucks and now this?
right now
I feel alone, scared, not in control, and guilty. I feel alone because there are so many people who I could talk to but no one I want to talk to. I don't even know if that makes sence. I want some to consol me but not with just words over the phone. I just want to sit and feel some next to me right now. I feel scared because now I just feel like things are pressuring me. Mostly its me thats putting pressure on me. I feel the pressure to start a life, have a wife and kids and do something with it. Before I could just fly under the radar while every one worried about the other boys. Now I feel like I have to produce. Like that number 6 hitter who has always hit 20-25 homers and driven in 80 now I feel like I am being moved to number 3 and given more responsability. Problem is I can't hit a curve ball and I can't find a decent batting coach. I want some one I can share my life with and I want it to work. I want love, but I am to scared to find it. These feelings suck. I feel not in control because my life hangs with others. And I feel guilty because at times I am having fun and I am enjoying myself and then I think about my brother and it just brings me down. I know that eventually it will fade but right now it still hurts. I cried last night, I cried in my dreams. I know its to soon after the event but man I wish it would go away.
My mom is taking it really hard still. Who can blame her. I asked her if keith had gotten anything for Jaden for her birthday (which already happened but the party is this weekend.) She said no cause he said he had plenty of time, and she started to cry. Its tough it really is.
I want to know what happened but only two people know for sure. One will never talk again and the other I don't want to talk to for fear that I might do something. I can usually be fairly calm in situations that call for it but here I just don't know. I want her to feel pain worse than my families combined. Thats what I want. I wish I could be as strong as my father who says he doesn't wish her any pain, because she has a little kid. But I wish her pain lots of pain. So much so that she does the same. Maybe its not right but I want her to suffer for so long and hard that she does it eventually. She has moved to the top of my hate list. The only thing thats good about her is that I don't have any idea what she looks like and thats better because I can't just hate an imagine, but I can hate an idea.
Song of the Day: Stereomud "Pain"
Thought O' Day: I feel like being sadist towards her.
I feel alone, scared, not in control, and guilty. I feel alone because there are so many people who I could talk to but no one I want to talk to. I don't even know if that makes sence. I want some to consol me but not with just words over the phone. I just want to sit and feel some next to me right now. I feel scared because now I just feel like things are pressuring me. Mostly its me thats putting pressure on me. I feel the pressure to start a life, have a wife and kids and do something with it. Before I could just fly under the radar while every one worried about the other boys. Now I feel like I have to produce. Like that number 6 hitter who has always hit 20-25 homers and driven in 80 now I feel like I am being moved to number 3 and given more responsability. Problem is I can't hit a curve ball and I can't find a decent batting coach. I want some one I can share my life with and I want it to work. I want love, but I am to scared to find it. These feelings suck. I feel not in control because my life hangs with others. And I feel guilty because at times I am having fun and I am enjoying myself and then I think about my brother and it just brings me down. I know that eventually it will fade but right now it still hurts. I cried last night, I cried in my dreams. I know its to soon after the event but man I wish it would go away.
My mom is taking it really hard still. Who can blame her. I asked her if keith had gotten anything for Jaden for her birthday (which already happened but the party is this weekend.) She said no cause he said he had plenty of time, and she started to cry. Its tough it really is.
I want to know what happened but only two people know for sure. One will never talk again and the other I don't want to talk to for fear that I might do something. I can usually be fairly calm in situations that call for it but here I just don't know. I want her to feel pain worse than my families combined. Thats what I want. I wish I could be as strong as my father who says he doesn't wish her any pain, because she has a little kid. But I wish her pain lots of pain. So much so that she does the same. Maybe its not right but I want her to suffer for so long and hard that she does it eventually. She has moved to the top of my hate list. The only thing thats good about her is that I don't have any idea what she looks like and thats better because I can't just hate an imagine, but I can hate an idea.
Song of the Day: Stereomud "Pain"
Thought O' Day: I feel like being sadist towards her.
