Sunday, March 25, 2007
Update Harm
Quick update, I got closed out by the really good looking girl from Chicago who I almost started talking with, and i closed out the one that hadn't been talking to me. I feel down and but also just want to feel wanted.
Quick update, I got closed out by the really good looking girl from Chicago who I almost started talking with, and i closed out the one that hadn't been talking to me. I feel down and but also just want to feel wanted.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
feeling blah
So all day I am feeling fine feeling relaxed, feeling happy. Went to the p-ville to do the draft lottery. Everything there was good, then I drove home. And while driving home I just get hit by this stupid revelation that I am going home to be alone. I sucks it really does. So far e-harm, I just keep getting closed out. And the one that I am talking or was talking too hasn't responded in almost a week. and a very beautiful one who connected me hasn't responded in the same amount of time. I don't like hearing that bullshit about ohh it'll happen. fuck that. I am so unused to anyone of the oppisite sex showing me anything that its getting me bummed the fuck out. Then I get home and hear some girls voice yelling "you fucked her didn't you?" And I realize just how much I like being single but at the same time, just realize that I would probably never be accused or sleeping around. I just don't have the ability to attract any women. So once I actually had one in my life I am pretty sure she would be the only one.
I am feeling better while writing this down though. I got some good Itunes going, and MTV2 is playing cool videos. Right now its Green Day "When I Come Around" from Woodstock 2. And the begining has Billy Jo grabbing a chunk of mud and putting it in his mouth and saying, see you can't die from that. Thats good stuff.
So all day I am feeling fine feeling relaxed, feeling happy. Went to the p-ville to do the draft lottery. Everything there was good, then I drove home. And while driving home I just get hit by this stupid revelation that I am going home to be alone. I sucks it really does. So far e-harm, I just keep getting closed out. And the one that I am talking or was talking too hasn't responded in almost a week. and a very beautiful one who connected me hasn't responded in the same amount of time. I don't like hearing that bullshit about ohh it'll happen. fuck that. I am so unused to anyone of the oppisite sex showing me anything that its getting me bummed the fuck out. Then I get home and hear some girls voice yelling "you fucked her didn't you?" And I realize just how much I like being single but at the same time, just realize that I would probably never be accused or sleeping around. I just don't have the ability to attract any women. So once I actually had one in my life I am pretty sure she would be the only one.
I am feeling better while writing this down though. I got some good Itunes going, and MTV2 is playing cool videos. Right now its Green Day "When I Come Around" from Woodstock 2. And the begining has Billy Jo grabbing a chunk of mud and putting it in his mouth and saying, see you can't die from that. Thats good stuff.
