Monday, March 27, 2006
thoughts
I saw the movie "inside man" it has more than one meaning so if you go to see it, which i do recomend, you'll know at the end of the movie. Denzel Washington and Clive Owne are great. And to quote the movie Jodie Foster is 'a magnificent cunt.'
Also the George Mason Patriots are in the final four. Anyone else think that the Bush administraion is trying to push when you are a patriotic and don't question the White House the terrorists lose. Just a thought.
I saw the movie "inside man" it has more than one meaning so if you go to see it, which i do recomend, you'll know at the end of the movie. Denzel Washington and Clive Owne are great. And to quote the movie Jodie Foster is 'a magnificent cunt.'
Also the George Mason Patriots are in the final four. Anyone else think that the Bush administraion is trying to push when you are a patriotic and don't question the White House the terrorists lose. Just a thought.
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Don't be ...
fooled by my charming personality I really am quite psychotic.
My horror-scope says today would be a good day to propose marriage. Shit man do they know something I don't? I actually think the last few days some one new has been writing the horror-scopes as they haven't been the usual bland all encompassing ones.
I'm hungry for some pancakes damnit.
fooled by my charming personality I really am quite psychotic.
My horror-scope says today would be a good day to propose marriage. Shit man do they know something I don't? I actually think the last few days some one new has been writing the horror-scopes as they haven't been the usual bland all encompassing ones.
I'm hungry for some pancakes damnit.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Chest Pains
So I woke up this morning at 4am with some really intense chest pains. The pain was localized below my sternum and seemingly just under the skin. Kind of like a big localized cramp. It hurt like hell. I got up made myself puke a few times, after about 10 minutes, drank some water and pepto went to bed. Thats the 2nd time in the last 3 months or so that that has happened. And Does it hurt like a muther. Imagine some one punching you from the inside of your guts. And then grabbing any tissue they can find and squeezing it. Stupid fucking AHHHHH it hurt like hell pain.
And no it wasn't heart related. You'd have to have one to have pain in it. Besides neither arm went numb. Fuck it hurt though.
So I woke up this morning at 4am with some really intense chest pains. The pain was localized below my sternum and seemingly just under the skin. Kind of like a big localized cramp. It hurt like hell. I got up made myself puke a few times, after about 10 minutes, drank some water and pepto went to bed. Thats the 2nd time in the last 3 months or so that that has happened. And Does it hurt like a muther. Imagine some one punching you from the inside of your guts. And then grabbing any tissue they can find and squeezing it. Stupid fucking AHHHHH it hurt like hell pain.
And no it wasn't heart related. You'd have to have one to have pain in it. Besides neither arm went numb. Fuck it hurt though.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
just feeling down
I guess it was about time that my feeling of riding high ended. Been feeling pretty depressed lately. From flirting with a girl who is seeing some one and is in a good relationship to seeing some one else damn near marriage with some one else. The good thing is, is that I like both guys. But if either hurt those girls then I'd have to unconditionally hate them.
I want them both to be happy, but seeing others like that happy depresses me. Makes me wonder about my own happiness. Its elusive. I have screwed up every relationship I have tried to be in. Except two, one she was really fucking nuts, and the second she saw what I looked like in person and left before I could see her.
If I drank heavily any more I'd get drunk and whine about it, but no sence whining about shit you can't change.
Song of the Day: Guano Apes "Open your Eyes"
Thought O' Day: I wouldn't mind being damn near immortal like Wolverine.
I guess it was about time that my feeling of riding high ended. Been feeling pretty depressed lately. From flirting with a girl who is seeing some one and is in a good relationship to seeing some one else damn near marriage with some one else. The good thing is, is that I like both guys. But if either hurt those girls then I'd have to unconditionally hate them.
I want them both to be happy, but seeing others like that happy depresses me. Makes me wonder about my own happiness. Its elusive. I have screwed up every relationship I have tried to be in. Except two, one she was really fucking nuts, and the second she saw what I looked like in person and left before I could see her.
If I drank heavily any more I'd get drunk and whine about it, but no sence whining about shit you can't change.
Song of the Day: Guano Apes "Open your Eyes"
Thought O' Day: I wouldn't mind being damn near immortal like Wolverine.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Ever think about....
How racist STOP signs are? Its white on red, symbolizing the white man's oppression of the native american. Or white out? Its white and covers up the black mistakes. What about chestnuts. Shit don't get me started. And Flipper shit man he was known in the under world as James the Nigger Hating Dolphin. Ok so all of this has been stolen, but ohh well. Nothing new in the world of hamms, except fucking with you guys. Always read the whole post boys. I am currently on spring break. Which only means that I get to sleep in more often. I like this. The Ticket is hosting an NTN Texas Hold 'Em Tournament next monday. $20 buys you in and gets you one free drink, 1st place 60% of the pot, 2nd 30 and 4rd 10. We can have 20 people playing, two tables of ten, at one time so if you are in the area and want to play come on in.
OK off to watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith,
Song of the Day: Dark New Day "Pieces"
Thought O' Day: Why is that?
How racist STOP signs are? Its white on red, symbolizing the white man's oppression of the native american. Or white out? Its white and covers up the black mistakes. What about chestnuts. Shit don't get me started. And Flipper shit man he was known in the under world as James the Nigger Hating Dolphin. Ok so all of this has been stolen, but ohh well. Nothing new in the world of hamms, except fucking with you guys. Always read the whole post boys. I am currently on spring break. Which only means that I get to sleep in more often. I like this. The Ticket is hosting an NTN Texas Hold 'Em Tournament next monday. $20 buys you in and gets you one free drink, 1st place 60% of the pot, 2nd 30 and 4rd 10. We can have 20 people playing, two tables of ten, at one time so if you are in the area and want to play come on in.
OK off to watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith,
Song of the Day: Dark New Day "Pieces"
Thought O' Day: Why is that?
Sunday, March 19, 2006
been a while
Sorry its been so long since my last actual post of any meaning. Strange things abrewin'. School and my internship have at work have been taking alot of my time. Thankfully I am done with my luncheon theme. Also other things are happening, last week on Saturday I was at work it was none to busy when in walks this woman and a little kid. I really didn't pay much attention to them as well I usually don't have much contact with them. Well they order and I start making and not really paying attention to anything but the food I'm cooking. Well after making the food and cleaning up a bit I go back and sit at the bar. When I get a tap on the shoulder. I thought it was Greg but it wasn't turns out the lady who walked in was some one from my grade school high school years. The 1st girl I ever had a crush on. I was honestly just going to brush her off with in a few minutes and I did try but she kept talking to me about what has happened to her since I last saw her. Yeah so I am kind of cold and every thing but she keeps talking to me. Since this was the 1st girl to ever show me any kind of reponse I actually had some deep feelings for her, but found out she was moving from her mom. She says that she is back in town for a while so maybe she'll see me later. I tell her I have to work late so I don't know if I will see her later or not. I am honestly just trying to blow her off cause I don't want to dredge up old memories. Well she comes back around 10. I am just shutting things off. And cleaning things up. She says she can wait and she would like to talk to me. After I get every thing done, she starts talking to me at the bar, turns out she got married right after high school cause she got pregnent. After a few years she decided that she just wasn't in love with the guy and he had been cheating on her so she got a divorce. Her mother had moved back to the area a few years ago so she is coming back to live with her. I know fasinating stuff. I think my boredom showed by now because then she said and I was hoping to find some people from my past. She then said I was hoping to find you because you were the 1st guy I had a real big crush on. Then she kind of slapped my in the arm and said hey I said I had a crush on you. Why are you being so damn mean to me. You are just sitting there like none of this is registering. Well I told her. I just didn't want to get hurt again, and I told her just how I felt. She kind of sat there quiet for awhile, then said well I kind of felt the same way. Even married she thought of she said. That kind of made me feel better. I told her that I had to leave cause I had to get up early the next day. She says she'll walk me out. well standing out side by car she gets close to me and gives me a hug then kisses me. She pulled back then I kissed her. Yes i do still have feelings for her, and she for me I guess. Well I gave her my phone number and she gave me hers. the next day she called me at work and asked when I was done. We met up after work and went to a movie. Thank you for a slow day at work. Well since then I have spent a lot of time her and her little boy. Kids name is Darren. Nice little shit. I have spent a night at her place and she has spent a night at mine. Nothing has happened save for some kissing and laying around with each other (uhg cuddling), as we both want to keep it slow. God I hope this works out. I am just hoping this works.
Song of the Day: Iron Butterfly "In-a-gadda-div-ida"
Thought o' Day: Happy early April fools Day suckers.
Sorry its been so long since my last actual post of any meaning. Strange things abrewin'. School and my internship have at work have been taking alot of my time. Thankfully I am done with my luncheon theme. Also other things are happening, last week on Saturday I was at work it was none to busy when in walks this woman and a little kid. I really didn't pay much attention to them as well I usually don't have much contact with them. Well they order and I start making and not really paying attention to anything but the food I'm cooking. Well after making the food and cleaning up a bit I go back and sit at the bar. When I get a tap on the shoulder. I thought it was Greg but it wasn't turns out the lady who walked in was some one from my grade school high school years. The 1st girl I ever had a crush on. I was honestly just going to brush her off with in a few minutes and I did try but she kept talking to me about what has happened to her since I last saw her. Yeah so I am kind of cold and every thing but she keeps talking to me. Since this was the 1st girl to ever show me any kind of reponse I actually had some deep feelings for her, but found out she was moving from her mom. She says that she is back in town for a while so maybe she'll see me later. I tell her I have to work late so I don't know if I will see her later or not. I am honestly just trying to blow her off cause I don't want to dredge up old memories. Well she comes back around 10. I am just shutting things off. And cleaning things up. She says she can wait and she would like to talk to me. After I get every thing done, she starts talking to me at the bar, turns out she got married right after high school cause she got pregnent. After a few years she decided that she just wasn't in love with the guy and he had been cheating on her so she got a divorce. Her mother had moved back to the area a few years ago so she is coming back to live with her. I know fasinating stuff. I think my boredom showed by now because then she said and I was hoping to find some people from my past. She then said I was hoping to find you because you were the 1st guy I had a real big crush on. Then she kind of slapped my in the arm and said hey I said I had a crush on you. Why are you being so damn mean to me. You are just sitting there like none of this is registering. Well I told her. I just didn't want to get hurt again, and I told her just how I felt. She kind of sat there quiet for awhile, then said well I kind of felt the same way. Even married she thought of she said. That kind of made me feel better. I told her that I had to leave cause I had to get up early the next day. She says she'll walk me out. well standing out side by car she gets close to me and gives me a hug then kisses me. She pulled back then I kissed her. Yes i do still have feelings for her, and she for me I guess. Well I gave her my phone number and she gave me hers. the next day she called me at work and asked when I was done. We met up after work and went to a movie. Thank you for a slow day at work. Well since then I have spent a lot of time her and her little boy. Kids name is Darren. Nice little shit. I have spent a night at her place and she has spent a night at mine. Nothing has happened save for some kissing and laying around with each other (uhg cuddling), as we both want to keep it slow. God I hope this works out. I am just hoping this works.
Song of the Day: Iron Butterfly "In-a-gadda-div-ida"
Thought o' Day: Happy early April fools Day suckers.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Barry Bonds
Robert W. Callahan asked what my feelings on Barry Bonds are. These are it. Barry Bonds is an immensly talented athlete who's skills are worth induction into the Hall of Fame. However since he has continually denied using 'roids yet gotten much much much bigger and yet his body fat hasn't. A usual thing as a man grows older. Skill wise he is above alot of people, desire wise and playing it out not so much. I remember a few years ago I beleive it was his 2nd year in SF he just turned and watched a homerun. But the problem with old Candlestick is that the winds can knock down a fly ball. And thats what happened the ball fell on the warning track. Well Barry then trudged after it but was still beaten to the ball by the centerfielder who was running after it. He rarely runs out groundballs, and stands and stares at his marvelous homeruns. For this Barry Bonds is a talented yet egotistical ass. He will refer to himself in the 3rd person and rarely runs hard any more. He will not score on a single from second. He trotted his son out while he himself was on crutches to deny that he was on 'roids. I don't beleive a fucking thing he says. If he did do this just get attention because Mark McGwire got it well then I really hate the guy. McGwire may have also used and this is a damning thing but because he never flately lied like Bonds or Palmero and because he was already a homerun hitter (49 his rookie year could have hit 50 but took the last day off to be at the birth of his son) he gets a pass. Bonds was a 25-30 homerun guy. Then during the juiced ball era he and Sammy and Raffy start knocking them out like crazy. I don't trust Barry Bonds I border line hate the guy. Are his stats worth Hall consideration? Yes but only after he sitts for a few years. Ohh and Burn in Hell Barry. I want to read the book and as soon as I can I will try and get my hands on a copy.
Robert W. Callahan asked what my feelings on Barry Bonds are. These are it. Barry Bonds is an immensly talented athlete who's skills are worth induction into the Hall of Fame. However since he has continually denied using 'roids yet gotten much much much bigger and yet his body fat hasn't. A usual thing as a man grows older. Skill wise he is above alot of people, desire wise and playing it out not so much. I remember a few years ago I beleive it was his 2nd year in SF he just turned and watched a homerun. But the problem with old Candlestick is that the winds can knock down a fly ball. And thats what happened the ball fell on the warning track. Well Barry then trudged after it but was still beaten to the ball by the centerfielder who was running after it. He rarely runs out groundballs, and stands and stares at his marvelous homeruns. For this Barry Bonds is a talented yet egotistical ass. He will refer to himself in the 3rd person and rarely runs hard any more. He will not score on a single from second. He trotted his son out while he himself was on crutches to deny that he was on 'roids. I don't beleive a fucking thing he says. If he did do this just get attention because Mark McGwire got it well then I really hate the guy. McGwire may have also used and this is a damning thing but because he never flately lied like Bonds or Palmero and because he was already a homerun hitter (49 his rookie year could have hit 50 but took the last day off to be at the birth of his son) he gets a pass. Bonds was a 25-30 homerun guy. Then during the juiced ball era he and Sammy and Raffy start knocking them out like crazy. I don't trust Barry Bonds I border line hate the guy. Are his stats worth Hall consideration? Yes but only after he sitts for a few years. Ohh and Burn in Hell Barry. I want to read the book and as soon as I can I will try and get my hands on a copy.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Rule of Thumb
When a professional athlete says its not about money, ITS ALAWAYS ABOUT THE MONEY. Javon Walker wants out of Green Bay because he didn't get the contract that he asked for last year, and because Brett critized him. Sure no problem lets trade him to Cleveland or San Fransico. I think the GBP could get a good 1st rounder out of this. But He is not at complete fault. Lets not forget that Ted Thompson has so far shown the desiviness and speed as a sleeping slug stuck in molasis. Ted Thompson may not be the wrong man for the job but so far he hasn't shown he is the right one. He wants this to be his team not some one elses so he is so far willing to gut a team and start over almost insuring an other losing season. I don't like Ted Thompson so far he has shown as much personality and decision making ability as a piece of white card board. Thank you Ted for 3 more losing years before you too get fired. He sat on his hands all of last year when injuries were destroying the Packers. So this ones for you Ted, Fuck you. I must stop now other wise I will rant all day about what a ponce Teddy No Game is.
When a professional athlete says its not about money, ITS ALAWAYS ABOUT THE MONEY. Javon Walker wants out of Green Bay because he didn't get the contract that he asked for last year, and because Brett critized him. Sure no problem lets trade him to Cleveland or San Fransico. I think the GBP could get a good 1st rounder out of this. But He is not at complete fault. Lets not forget that Ted Thompson has so far shown the desiviness and speed as a sleeping slug stuck in molasis. Ted Thompson may not be the wrong man for the job but so far he hasn't shown he is the right one. He wants this to be his team not some one elses so he is so far willing to gut a team and start over almost insuring an other losing season. I don't like Ted Thompson so far he has shown as much personality and decision making ability as a piece of white card board. Thank you Ted for 3 more losing years before you too get fired. He sat on his hands all of last year when injuries were destroying the Packers. So this ones for you Ted, Fuck you. I must stop now other wise I will rant all day about what a ponce Teddy No Game is.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
The Bitch Strikes Again
So this lady whom I really do not care for. She has no tact and no respect for others was in the bar last night. She said she gave one of the bartenders a $100 bill. Well she didn't she gave her a $20. She started not yelling but saying bad things about the bartender who did it. Gets the bartender so upset that she leaves and comes back into the room I am in. Yeah once she started I left. I hate dealing with the lady and am afraid that if I have to keep listening to her I will snap at her. Her husband seems to just sit there and let it happen too. Anyway she gets the bartender so upset she starts crying and has to go home early. Meanwhile the other bartender, the woman's daughter, has to handle a really busy bar for the next few hours. Before the bartender leaves well looky there she found the $100 in her wallet, but never apologized. FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING CUNT!!!!! I really do not like this woman. Her daughter is fine but she can be a real bitch. Also I worked 13 1/2 hours yesterday. My feet hurt like hell and I am tired. Need sleep. Need to curl up next to a cutie and take the rest of the week off. Since its only me that means curling up next to a pillow and sleeping.
Song of the Day: Hinder "Lips of an Angel"
Thought O' Day: Has no one ever stood up to this woman?
So this lady whom I really do not care for. She has no tact and no respect for others was in the bar last night. She said she gave one of the bartenders a $100 bill. Well she didn't she gave her a $20. She started not yelling but saying bad things about the bartender who did it. Gets the bartender so upset that she leaves and comes back into the room I am in. Yeah once she started I left. I hate dealing with the lady and am afraid that if I have to keep listening to her I will snap at her. Her husband seems to just sit there and let it happen too. Anyway she gets the bartender so upset she starts crying and has to go home early. Meanwhile the other bartender, the woman's daughter, has to handle a really busy bar for the next few hours. Before the bartender leaves well looky there she found the $100 in her wallet, but never apologized. FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING CUNT!!!!! I really do not like this woman. Her daughter is fine but she can be a real bitch. Also I worked 13 1/2 hours yesterday. My feet hurt like hell and I am tired. Need sleep. Need to curl up next to a cutie and take the rest of the week off. Since its only me that means curling up next to a pillow and sleeping.
Song of the Day: Hinder "Lips of an Angel"
Thought O' Day: Has no one ever stood up to this woman?
Friday, March 03, 2006
Sometimes...
I just want to shoot the dumb ones. At work tonight a few things pissed me off. One) if you order, get your food then sit around and talk while slowly munching your fucking side then eat the fish only to find that it is cold TEN MINUTES AFTER YOU GOT IT, then you deserve to be hit in the head with a fucking tack hammer. This girl and her boyfriend did it. Shit you not ten to fifteen minutes after the order had been put in front of them they claim its cold. FUCK YOU!!!!
Two if you are going to be annoying at least be funny or original. Some guy was being ignored because he was being a douce and told his older friends be it his mom and dad or what ever lets get out of here, dumb ass leaves with a beer bottle in his hand. I hope he got picked up. Stupid fucker.
Three if its your job do it.
Also NEVER NEVER call me after midnight unless you are dying or need some one to post bail and I like you. That last one is for a very select few the others spend the night in the clink. Hey I'm all for having fun but don't fucking drunk dial me to ask where I am when I am damn near in bed. I am old leave me alone. I don't care how hot you are you better have something seriously wrong to warrent calling me. And not just "where you at man? I'm drunk" leave that to before midnight.
Song of the Day: Metallica "ONE"
Thought O' Day: As of this exact moment I really don't fucking care if I do end up single for my life.
I just want to shoot the dumb ones. At work tonight a few things pissed me off. One) if you order, get your food then sit around and talk while slowly munching your fucking side then eat the fish only to find that it is cold TEN MINUTES AFTER YOU GOT IT, then you deserve to be hit in the head with a fucking tack hammer. This girl and her boyfriend did it. Shit you not ten to fifteen minutes after the order had been put in front of them they claim its cold. FUCK YOU!!!!
Two if you are going to be annoying at least be funny or original. Some guy was being ignored because he was being a douce and told his older friends be it his mom and dad or what ever lets get out of here, dumb ass leaves with a beer bottle in his hand. I hope he got picked up. Stupid fucker.
Three if its your job do it.
Also NEVER NEVER call me after midnight unless you are dying or need some one to post bail and I like you. That last one is for a very select few the others spend the night in the clink. Hey I'm all for having fun but don't fucking drunk dial me to ask where I am when I am damn near in bed. I am old leave me alone. I don't care how hot you are you better have something seriously wrong to warrent calling me. And not just "where you at man? I'm drunk" leave that to before midnight.
Song of the Day: Metallica "ONE"
Thought O' Day: As of this exact moment I really don't fucking care if I do end up single for my life.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Thanks Kyle and Ed
From Kyle
From Ed
Quail Hunting Certifacation
Update
So I had a luncheon today and well it really sucks being the only guy in the class when the rest of the class is PMS'ing. Ohh yeah you say one bad thing and boom. This sucks.
From Kyle
From Ed
Quail Hunting Certifacation
Update
So I had a luncheon today and well it really sucks being the only guy in the class when the rest of the class is PMS'ing. Ohh yeah you say one bad thing and boom. This sucks.
Zombie Middle Schoolers
So thats what was in my dream last night. And I was killing them. It was really weird and kid of scary. But ya know what I kept doing it. One of those dreams that is kind of like a night mare, I even woke up during it but just went back to sleep to dream it more. Yeah killing zombie middle schoolers in dark high school hallways was actually kid of cool. I had a shot gun and I had claws like Wolverine.
Also I know almost none one who reads this regularly would understand this but in the Decimation M story line Wolverine gets all his memories back. Of course they don't tell the readers what they are but he does get them back.
OK got to go help with the luncheon. Later.
So thats what was in my dream last night. And I was killing them. It was really weird and kid of scary. But ya know what I kept doing it. One of those dreams that is kind of like a night mare, I even woke up during it but just went back to sleep to dream it more. Yeah killing zombie middle schoolers in dark high school hallways was actually kid of cool. I had a shot gun and I had claws like Wolverine.
Also I know almost none one who reads this regularly would understand this but in the Decimation M story line Wolverine gets all his memories back. Of course they don't tell the readers what they are but he does get them back.
OK got to go help with the luncheon. Later.
